Caught Between a Rock and a Hard Place.....

What is loneliness? What is sadness? Sometimes this is not obvious. Maybe people see you on the outside but on the inside you are so lonely. You know what you want but you can't have it. Certain situations prohibit you having What you want so you are stuck in a make believe reality. A secret happiness that you cannot have and people must not know you have. But you actually do not have it for real you can't. Not allowed to. So why does the LORD show you what you cannot have? Wouldn't it be better if he just did not open your eyes to the impossible? It's not even probable. It's impossible. So why did God lead you into the impossible? No one knows except God. And then it's gone. Dead. And you ask yourself, shouldn't I have at least had some happiness? Waiting for a never coming future is so difficult. Why didn't I do what gave me happiness? Now it's too late. Death is not a balancer. It's a loss of hopes and dreams. Our eyes are not open all the time for everything and everyone. They may be open once in a lifetime. Once. True love is so hard to find. True Real Love. And then it's gone before you could not even experience it. Sad. A loss. If you have love,, cherish it. Most don't. Some find it but can't have it. Some never find it. Enjoy within the boundaries. But you can't. It's not real. Life is so difficult and so complicated. And no one understands you. Death. And the one and only chance for happiness is gone. Start again? Too tired. But friend,, don't give up. There is always hope, even when all hope is gone. Why LORD? SILENCE.

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